Loves to Dance!

Monday, May 31, 2010

Holden Beach, N.C.


Last April my oldest friend in the world Brian Deaton and his wife Yoshiko came to visit us in Portland. I remember holding Brian when he was Aubrey's age. I've been told that when I was 5 I used to tote Brian around like he was "my baby." I've even been told that I taught him how to walk. We were neighbors in Georgia and over the years our families have continued to vacation together in Holden Beach, N.C. I was so happy to share Holden Beach with Cameron last summer. 20 weeks pregnant Cameron, my parents and I traveled back to Holden Beach and shared a house with Larry, Patti, Brian, Yoshiko, Ashley, and Joseph. When we arrived we discovered that Ashley, due in March, was about 12 weeks pregnant also with a girl. Including the Boesenberg twins we will have 4 girls all within 2 months of each other. I cannot wait to travel back to the beach when all 4 girls are about 3 years of age! Holden Beach... over 25 years of wonderful memories!


Aubrey loves touching her toes! Spends at least 2 hours a day doing this.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Baby Smiles

The moment I laid eyes on my beautiful daughter I fell in love. However, the last 2 months this love has grown to the point where I feel like I could just burst! Of course I loved my newborn the minute she entered this world but, I clearly remember that feeling when she first smiled AT ME. I was changing her diaper when I looked up at her face and there it was... a big toothless baby grin her eyes fixated on mine. It was like a light went on inside me and in amazement I was like... ok... this is what I've been doing all this work for. From that day on her smiles bring me such joy. Every morning when I enter her room after I hear she has awaken I'm met with this gorgeous smile. It is almost like she is surprised to see me after 10 hours of sleeping. Never in my adult life have I been a morning person and smiling well... not before my morning coffee. Having a baby changes that. You can't help but smile at this little girl who already thinks the world of you and her smiles just melt your heart.

4 months - White Coat Syndrome

Aubrey had her 4 month baby well visit last May. We absolutely adore her pediatrician. She is very kind, down to earth, and most importantly has a relaxing affect on us. This is important especially for me because when it comes to health matters I can be a bit of an alarmist. This of course is not all my fault after all I was diagnosed with a somewhat rare autoimmune disorder ITP just 1 month after Cameron and I became engaged. Currently, I've been enjoying 18 months of treatment free remission. In addition to my health battles my occupation also greatly contributes. I work in Oncology/Hematology in infusion therapy. The majority of my patients are living with some type of cancer diagnosis. Whether or not they are receiving palliative or curative treatment they are all in my mind survivors. Their courage and strength amaze me everyday. Some of their stories can be a bit disconcerting especially those whose diagnosis were delayed ultimately leading to a poorer prognoses. I have heard many, many, stories. I have learned that an unexplained symptom should never be ignored. For example, some of my patients were continuously referred to physical therapy for that "unexplained pain" only to discover a large and poorly differentiated tumor months later. So, having a pediatrician that has a calming affect on us is just what the doctor ordered.

Aubrey's 4 month stats:

Weight: 13.3 lbs - 40 percentile
Length: 24.5 inches- 60 percentile
Head Circ: 16.5 inches- 75 percentile

Aubrey must have had some flash backs from her previous appointments because the moment the medical assistant (the same one who has given her her shots) started measuring her she started to fuss. One minute later (we haven't even seen the MD yet) she is in a full blown meltdown. Nothing was going to stop her from crying at this point. Her pediatrician came in and performed her assessment calm, cool, collected as usual. It did not seem to phase her that Aubrey was screaming her head off. She was even able to listen to her lungs through her stethoscope without hesitation. It was then the MAs turn as she entered with her 4 month vaccinations. 40 minutes had elapsed by then and Aubrey was still screaming. She had never cried this long, this hard, and in a public setting for that matter. As I left the office I saw little scared faces in the waiting room as I try to sneak out a screaming baby. We made it into the car and the crying finally ceased. Poor little Aubrey. Looks like we have an extreme case of the "white coat syndrome."

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Ready to be a Mama!



The morning of January 9, 2010. Waiting impatiently for Aubrey to arrive. We were admitted on January, 8 at 8:00 pm to start the induction process. I was so excited I could only sleep for 2 hours even with the help of sleep aids.

1-09-10 at 5:35 pm 7 pounds 13 oz and 19.5 in

The Day Our Family Grew By Two Feet...


Aubrey Paige Jackson born with some strawberry blonde hair! The day our lives changed forever.